April 7, 2009

Heartbreak

Seriously, why aren't we new parents given more information by those of you already raising children? Or even by those of you who have completed the job of raising your children (if they're nearing 40, shouldn't you stop now)?

Immunizations. Why didn't anyone tell me the sight of my child in his crib, unable to turn over because his poor little legs hurt from three different shots, would bring me to tears? Why? Whyyyyyyyyyy??? I still might have shed some tears, but at least I would have been prepared.

Baby MAC had his 6-month check up this week which included shots. He's done so well (no tears, barely a whimper) at his previous check ups. Not the case this week. He cried with the first shot and the two that followed. Of course, we had a different nurse this time. Maybe it was her technique. After some hugs and kisses, we calmed down and made our way home.

When I put him to bed later that night his "tired" cry turned into a "painful" and "frustrated" cry. I went into his room thinking I would rub his back for a little bit and see if that would quiet him. Instead I found the saddest little boy. His face was red from frustration and wet from his tears. He's rarely sad and it broke my heart because not only was he in pain and exhausted from the day, but he couldn't turn himself onto his stomach. It's a simple movement he does every night to put himself to sleep. But, his legs hurt too much to kick them over and give himself momentum to roll onto his belly.

I gave him a hand and rolled him onto his belly and began rubbing his back. He was fast asleep within three minutes.

C'mon, give a new mom some info, won't you?!

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